Thursday, December 13, 2007

this one's going out to hervé

wow this blog is WAYYY too personal.
pretty sure im gonna delete everything

titre de sejour

so. guess what? this language shit is starting to click. its fucking mazing! communicating in another language. its probably like on eo fthe coolest feelings ever. ive worked like, pretty fucking hard at getting this language, and its tedious and embarrassing and striaght up hard son, but im making progress and starting to get it/ it feels fucking rad.

so, im finishin gup the semester here, alexis found an apartment for us in the alps, WORD!!! and i THOught i found a job, until the lady called me tonight (hte night before my first day basically) to tell me that the 20 hour per week thing (then an additional 20 hours on top of the UTT style) jsut like wasnt going to work out. bummer. guess i gotta start over:

nutella is good.. alexis is good... sounds like he isnt really sick anymore thats good...... i kinda wanted this hotel job cause id be speaking mad french and have my own place to stay and ACTUALLY STACK SOME LOOOOOOOOOOOT?! but um, guess it was a bit too good to be true; fuckin whack son. guess theres something better right around the corner.

i gotta think that way cause its the only way i keep myself sane here. if im like what if what if what if all the time i go bonkerz. straight up. i just gotta focus on the positive stuff and get over the gay shit

GA%Y shit:

what if shit was gay or straight

no really
homosxual poop
fascinating

word.

Sunday, December 2, 2007

diet pillllz

i think im gonna go buy some of those shits tomorrow
hahahahha


diet pillllzzzzz
french diet pillz

yess

j'obliais

i obliais
je forgot

to write something
ANYTHING
thats actually good
creative productive artistic in my life in the month of november

for some reason i think its coool to like beat myself
but i dont think i deserve it like tina turner

huh

anyway
throughout the month of november, lets see:

i studies french and got good graaadessss


insert y scanned tests into the puter


i made two stencils and did them actually thats coool
and i made these tiny little ones friends at the skatepark and they were fuckin rad and they spoke to me in french not liek most of the bitches in AIX

the first stencil said say what cause je suis confusé tous les jours tous les jours

en classe confused
in the street confuse
at the store confuse

drinkin juice confuse
eating crepes confuse

oui oui oiu
confuse

roquefort and brie
confuse

say what

and the other is FOR YOU
CAUSE I DID IT FOR KASH

but it says for you
and its really simple and it kind of sucks actually but its ok
i skateboarded on it
and gave it to kash on the internet
god damn im so gay

haha whatever
it was good


and i went to italy
and i made some real friends
and i took some photographs

and....i drank a lot of coffee

and i walked up the fuckin ghill everydya hahaha
and did a bunch of laundry
made dinner for alexi a lot

um i guess i didnt do as much as i thoguh t i did but its cool
for real
its cool
oh an d i packed up the whole house with jessica and we moved and everything all by ourseles!!! word!!!

drink wine
smoke butts
fuck ya
life

chooose an identity

any identity

i dont know why i just sad that
i just saw it i think

so i live in marseille now
at my boyfriends dads house
thats pretty fuckin sweet
right? hahahha

um yeah

no for real
is that wierd?

it was a matter of circumstance really
and for realz
who wants to walk home to an empty old apartment thats too expensive and to far so hitchhike home all the time

fuck that
so i bounced

cause hervé offered me a spot and i was like um. ok. sure i love your apartment
and i love your free internet and i love you and i love how you buy all the food i like like greek yogurt and feta cheese and salad stuff and clementines and endives and tomatoes and i love the way this palce smells and and i love how marseille is real
and the people here are real
and it makes me realize how aix is whack

but its ok
im really not here for that much longer before i go home ot the states for christmas
and then go back to the alps to spend the season with alexis

its kinda likea make it or break it winter i htink

but i dont knoz
i love that boy so fuckin much its retarded


i jst stopped what i was doing to tell him that

is that good?


why do i get all pyscho sometimes
that shit is gay
i love getting emo while blogging

that shit is gay too
i think this blog is just one giant reflection of how gay i am

im struggs
struggle street for sure

hahhahahha